Today is Jean's birthday (HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEAN!)
I can't believe how much time has passed since the last post on Steven's blog. Life still is surreal, and I guess it is difficult to post because most days are incredibly tough to get through as is. However, it is my goal to post all those updates I or anyone else desires to share, so here is the first of many overdue updates. For Steven, I do it.
For Jean I do it today. I know she isn't much of a birthday celebrator, but she deserves a happy day. Each day we face has a memory of the same day one year ago. Sometimes it is hard to find the happiness in those memories. I so badly want her to think of happy memories today and to have a happy birthday. So here's a memory for her:
I believe a year ago today, give or take a day, Jean, Steven and I watched from the hospital a documentary called "King Corn". Most of you can probably still picture Steven's energy when he talked about something he was passionate about. His blue eyes sparkled, his hands and arms moved to the beat of every syllable he spoke, and he talked VERY LOUDLY. I loved it. He would get so fired up over the most seemingly random issues. Corn was one of them. High fructose corn syrup was a bad word to Steven. Grocery shopping took twice as long because he'd dissect the ingredients of everything, getting quite outraged to learn something was corn based. Watching this video with him is a happy memory. Now that I think about it, it was rude not to let Jean pick the video, considering it was her day...though, that would have left 2/3rds of us painfully pretending to enjoy a Mel Brooks film.
A few nights ago I came across Dwight Yoakam playing at the Grand Ole Opry. Steven loved Dwight, "the man who brought honky tonk back to country music," as they introduced him, as well as Dwight the actor. When Dwight played Honky Tonk Man, I thought of the video from Steven's rosary. I've wanted to post the video for those who didn't get to see it or who might want to watch it again. I hope it brings back happy memories for all who watch it, and especially today, for Jean. He would want you to think of the thousands of happy days he had with you.
-Jenny
6 comments:
Happy Birthday Jean.
Hope you had a great day.
Thank you for sharing the video.... Steven seems to have lived more than most people do their entire lives.
I truly did push the Mel Brooks movie. He corners the market on getting a laugh out of making a complete idiot out of yourself. To that I add that his much employed actor, Dom Delouis, died and is probably entertaining Steven in Heaven. I'm sure he has a whole new appreciation for his humor and wishes he had watched all those goofy movies with me. Thanks for the bday wish.
Today I woke up from a dream about Steven. I have prayed for so long for Steve to come to me in a dream that I hardly realized it when it happened. Then I recalled it was the second time it happened that week, but I didn't think about it when I woke up the first time. I only remembered because I hugged him. I felt his boniness then realized I had felt that in a dream before. He looked like his old self and smiled at me as if he'd been here all along and I just hadn't noticed. That's probably true in some strange celestial way. He always had a teasing way of looking at me like, "Surely you can't be that naive." Although this is what I have wanted for so long it hit me hard and set my day into darkness. I, however, leave for Denver tomorrow with Ryan for a lacrosse tournament. My sister, Cindi, and her daughter, Laura, will be there. I am very much looking forward to this mini vacation. Jean
I am thankful for our time together in Denver, Jean. I don't remember a time when I haven't looked up to you and you continue to amaze me by your strength and faith. Thanks for bringing me back to Steven's blog. I love you, Sis. Here's to many more dreams.
Jean you are always in my thoughts and prayers.
That was really beautiful!
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